January 29, 2005

http://www.fotolog.net/winterandkiwi/

check it out
bunny butt!

i love ryan:)

January 26, 2005

So...let me tell you about my damn day.

It all started last night around 10 p.m.

I picked up Ryan and headed to Mainely Brews for our usual Monday outing. See Mondays are open mic nights here in Waterville. I walk into the bar and what do I see? Oh yah, it's Zach...all over another girl. But it's not just any girl. This girl works with me and ever since she found out that Zach and I were, whatever, she moved in for the kill. MUST GET ZACH AT ANY COSTS. She's my exact opposite, she is manipulative, well basically, she's a bitch. So, I decide to ignore it, because, hell, I'm there for the music, not Zach. But secretly kids, I was there for Zach.

Then after wondering for a week when my friend Chris was coming up to see me before he moved out west, I find out that he has been in town for 2 days. Count them. 1...2...days. And he hadn't called me. Needless to say my mood is quickly changing. I called Chris on his cell phone. No answer. I tried a couple hours later...no answer. Wow..the smoke is coming out of my ears.

Now, one of the main reasons I was at the bar was to finish Zach's bday present. I had to take a few more pictures to complete the most awesome present I have ever come up with. I wait, and wait and wait. Getting more pissed off by the second. Then, finally, at 12:30 he goes on. I get my camera ready. I take one photo, not so great, so I get ready for the next one...and what happens next? My batteries DIED!!!!

Well, then. Oh wonderful night. I left promptly without turning my head. Then today I slept until 2:30!! Ewww..I wasted my entire day doing nothing! And after waking up, taking a shower, making myself look presentable...I spend the next 8 hours trying to track down Chris. To no luck.

Now I'm pissy.

January 23, 2005

"Dead as dead can be, the doctors tell me. I just can't believe him. Never the optimistic one."

Trying to prove you wrong
Dr. Morrow
Dr. Riva
Dr. Alto
Dr. Clark

Have a good week. Realized that time is to precious to waste on stupid people. It's weird I was having the time of my life the first couple of months. Then the bullshit started. Now that I have taken a vacation and relaxed a little bit everything is back into perspective. I am young, and still alive. MUST NOT FORGET THIS!!

I'm spending a lot of time with my best friend Ryan. He is a little crazy:) He is actually standing next to me talking about his beer belly while drinking a Miller High Life. Haha. We went to the crappy beer today to save a little money. Number 9 and Shipyard Export get a little expensive. He is such a retard...but I love him! We have gotten to the stage in our friendship that we are unbelieveable comfortable around each other. I'm laughing as I write this because he is talking about his "manhood". Haha.

I'm not dating anyone. Fooled around with a couple people that I have been friends with forever but nothing really amounted from it. But it's cool. My world was revolving around one Zach Benner. Our perfect relationship got messed up around New Years Eve but I don't really want to get into here. Anywho we are on the road to repair right now. He is a really good guy and is worth the effort of trying to fix everything.

I know I don't make much sense but I'm trying to listen to Ryan being crazy...

"Baby batter"

Haha

Once I organize my thoughts I will post again.

Had the feeling of depression creeping back again...must stop it.

January 18, 2005

I'm in Amherst, Mass!!

I decided to take a mini vacation away from all the bullshit that Waterville offers. I needed to get away from Applebee's, stress, Zach, just everything. So I left!!

I spent a night with Chris Cornwall and needless to say, had a wonderful time:)

Amherst is everything I remembered and then some. It's nice to get back into a piece of my life that makes me happy!

I would love to say more but I'm addicted to Queer As Folk so it's hard to focus on anything other than the tv.

More details later