so now, he gets to be part of the family. he gets to go to thanksgiving, to christmas, to birthday dinners. the absurd, controlling adolescent who thinks he is superior to everyone gets to stand out in the crowd. how is this fair? yes, i know i'm jealous, but who wouldn't be. the somewhat normal girl who is open minded not to mention in love with the family, gets cast aside. how can this be? how can this be? there will be no more birthday dinners, no more surprise visits to the shop, no more christmas, and no more stopping by just to say hi. sometimes i think i'll miss that more than him. his family helped me alot in the past 2 years, and now i'm just cut off. like it's nothing. all i'm left with is the aching of not being with him, the desire to see family, and the image of the other him pushing me further and further from their minds everyday. cuz he's the one that worked out. go figure.